Thursday, 11 September 2014

Someone's painting and I think it's me

I haven't been drawing as much as I'd of liked to this summer, a combination of not having as much free time, lack of inspiration and being overly harsh on myself. I'm happy to report that I seem to be well and truly out of that slump now though! I thought I'd share a few recent pages from my sketchbook I'm quite fond of.



➳ The floral design was from a vintage gift bag I had which was in rather shoddy condition, but I loved the design so much I decided to recreate it in acrylics and Posca pens. It proved to be a lot more fiddly to draw than I anticipated, but it was quite nice to just sit and paint without thinking too much whilst I played films in the background. Next to it is some samples of Orla Kiely wallpapers with a Stephen King quote I just love. I've often felt because Stephen King is a popular writer he's seen as pretty lowbrow, but some of his passages really speak to me. He often manages to perfectly articulate precise feelings I hadn't known how to even begin to say or perhaps hadn't even realised I felt.
➳ I recently dug out my old Prismacolor markers which had been stored in the shed for 5 years. Once I got my full set of Copics I completely abandoned them, but using them recently I really can't work out why! They're a completely different pen to Copics, the colours are so wonderfully vibrant which is just perfect for drawing Yellow Submarine characters. I'm currently obsessed!
➳ The sunflower was a completely experimental piece and one I really love. I bought a set of Windsor & Newton inks when at art school and never really "got" them. I incorporated them into my watercolours and I just love how it came out, they gave the paints some real depth and vibrancy. I don't paint very often as I love my markers but I really must give this method more goes!




Most of my creative time lately has been spent working on a personal zine project which I'm so excited about. Making my own zine is something I've been interested in for a long time but never had the courage to act on. I previously got a bit caught up in the idea that there's a "right" way to do a zine, and I'd probably do it wrong and totally miss the mark somehow.


My ideas and concepts never felt good enough, I certainly don't feel my writing is strong enough (I never like my writing), and just general feelings of someone else could do it so much better than me. But then I realised so what? That way of thinking is surely missing the point. It doesn't matter if someone else has better ideas, is a better writer, or a better artist, or better anything, they don't have your passions or perspective or story and that's what truly matters. It's about creating the thing, pouring your soul into it (and there's no right or wrong or good or bad way to do that.). And I realised that I've never ever finished reading a zine and thought 'Wow, that sucked' because they don't. Every zine is a personal experience, that's the joy and whole essence of them and what keeps me going back for more.

“You have to surrender to your mediocrity, and just write. Because it’s hard, really hard, to write even a crappy book. But it’s better to write a book that kind of sucks rather than no book at all, as you wait around to magically become Faulkner. No one is going to write your book for you and you can't write anybody’s book but your own.” - Cheryl Strayed

6 comments

  1. I am quite pleased with all of these drawings! So lovely!!!

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  2. Your art journal is like magic to my eyes. I wish I could flip through it in the flesh. I love art journals, and I love seeing those of other people's. It's like a little window into someone's imagination. So good to hear that you decided that it doesn't matter if someone out there can do a better job or not, what matters is the fact that what has been created is a direct impression or you and that is what makes it so valuable. Wonderful to hear that you are currently developing a zine. I am looking forward to seeing it, as well as the Ringo one! It sounds like a really fun project.

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  3. You are amazing, you write beautifully and I could pour over your artwork for hours, so colourful, groovy and timeless. xxx

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  4. Your art is so pretty and I think you are a gifted writer! I can never seem to get feelings out on a page and I think you have succeeded at that magnificently, you are definitely an inspiration!

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  5. Love that Cheryl quote. Your story is so recognizable. Keep up the 'I don't care' attitude and just do it! I'm sure it will result in something wonderful! :)

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  6. I would love to have a copy of your zine! I love your illustration style and I definitely appreciate your writing style. I sometimes think mine is too one sided or silly, and that I don't get deep enough (just whingy) but like you said, it's your writing style, and if no one else reads it then oh well! Remember how we all used to keep diaries and let NO ONE read them. And now it's all out in the open and we care too much. But we totally shouldn't. I love that first floral illustration too. I'd love to commission some work of you one day! xo

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