Thursday, 10 May 2018

I Am Free




I haven't been around these parts much lately, I've had my final uni project to focus on and as usual I procrastinated up until the last minute and so had to fit about 6 weeks worth of work into 3 weeks! To be honest it hasn't settled in yet that uni will all be over very soon. I've really hated university for the most part, it's been a very dark period of my life where I've felt completely isolated and my mental illnesses got very unstable which led to suicide attempts. But on the flip side, and I'm trying my best to think of the positives, it's been three years where I got to focus on my artwork and there's not many who can say that. I may not have had the mental capacity to make the most of that, but I've still created work I'm proud of and feel I've finally found my groove with it all and know where to go from here. I'm also proud of myself for not giving up, as I was all prepared to drop out along the way as I'm sure you can imagine. I may have had a hellish time, but as cliché as it sounds I'm definitely leaving stronger for it.

Some of the pieces from my final project, I designed a series of music posters and drew a multi page editorial piece





And now it's preparing for the next stage! I've really tried to make the most of having free time this year, as I know that's a luxury I won't have soon. I'm also trying to do all I can to ensure I don't get stuck in a dead-end job, and that I keep drawing and feeling creative. Hopefully that part should be easy enough as I plan on doing a 365 drawing challenge where I draw every single day for a year. Which sounds a bit intimidating, but not every drawing has to be a masterpiece, as long as I'm sketching it counts (and trying to loose my perfectionism in my art is another goal I'd like to achieve so hopefully it'll fit with that too!). Drawing everyday is so important as an artist as it's so easy to loose that creative mindset and find yourself in a never ending art block, and also skills and style will stagnate and never develop. My perfectionism is what's always stopped me from doing this before which is why it's a mindset I'm so desperate to break out of, I really want to learn to draw just for the fun of it purely for myself again.

I'd also like to complete a 365 photo a day challenge, so you might start seeing that on here. It's something I've wanted to do for a while, and something I've tried just about every year for the past 8 years but given up after a few days, but I think it will really help my creativity and also help my mental health by keeping me grounded and taking stock of things I'm doing each day, even if that's not much.

As for job stuff, that's under wraps at the moment as I don't want to flap my mouth too much and then have it not pan out, but fingers crossed!



This is what I wore yesterday to hand in my project and sign everything off. My dress I made during my first year of uni out of some vintage crimplene, and my shoes are vintage 1960s. My necklace I bought when I went to Boscastle last year, it's smokey quartz and citrine. I love crystals and these two stones are very special to me so I feel like this is my 'lucky' necklace and I rarely remove it. It was last official day of uni, although I still have to go in for some meetings and there's the degree art showing where our work is displayed to the public and prospective clients. So I suddenly find myself with all of the free time in the world!

Title: The Kinks - I Am Free

11 comments:

  1. Congratulations on finishing school! I also had a rough time during my last few years at school and almost thought I wouldn't finish. But it's a wonderful feeling when it's all over. Good luck with all your upcoming projects! :D

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    1. Thank you! ♥ It really is a wonderful feeling!

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  2. Hi Sydney, I'm glad you're feeling free. I can definitely relate to how uni can be isolating at times. I felt such as difference from high school where there was more of a community and you used to see the same people all the time so it seemed that there were more connections. Did you feel that way too?

    But I wish you the best now that you are finished uni and I'm excited to hear what you'll do for work now. I've found that there's more of a community feeling at work.

    Lap up the free time 'cause before you know it, you might be really busy. I'm really busy with my new job at the moment but I've found some time to create a new vintage blog. I hope you'll check it out. ☺

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    1. Thank you. It's been a long time since I was at school (I'm 29, so a 'mature' student as I was chronically ill for most of my 20s) so it hasn't really been a transitioning issue for me so much, it was just more of a coping issue in general and I think the fact I got so ill again didn't help as it was mostly during the first year when people are getting to know each other. I've had quite a few jobs already, so at least I know what to expect in that regard.
      I'd love to give it a read, feel free to drop me the link :)

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    2. Thanks Sydney. It's www.dreaming-of-vintage-treasures.blogspot.com.au ☺

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  3. Congratulations on reaching the end of university and living to tell the tale. great news on the job offer, hope it turns out well. Your artwork is breathtaking and I love your me-made dress. xxx

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  4. Good luck with your job search and congrats on finishing up uni! I hope you do follow through with your drawing a day challenge. I would like to see more of your "doodles" or casual sketches.

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    1. Thank you! I'll be sure to post the ones I like! :)

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  5. Congrats Sydney!! I'm so sorry to hear about the struggles you've gone through... I hope that you'll just keep getting happier and happier from this point on. Keep doing what you love and it will take you wonderful places! <3

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    1. Thank you so much, that's very sweet of you ♥

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